Staying as busy as possible.

Been traveling again. But now I'm back at home in an effort to take life by the reigns. Doing my best to stay busy... Not always easy. I developed some habits as a sick person at home and it's time to break some of them and get a hold of life. 

Will be building 7 top bar hives over the next week or two, in an effort to provide hives for friends. But also to see if I can get the price organized. Without knowing how long it will take its hard to put a price on a homemade product. 

4 of the hives are already ordered, one will stay here with me. 

Living Again

Should I be apologizing for not having posted in a while...?

I hope not!!!

My life took a sharp turn for the better 5 months ago and I'm learning how to live again. Projects are coming together... Some have even come to completion. I recently built a table for a friend and than drove to Italy to instal a beehive I built for a friend. 

I'm no longer refusing invitations and fearing vertigo attacks. Life has improved and I'm looking forward to rebuilding a better life. 

Rebuilding a Life

 Only just a few weeks ago I was still working towards rebuilding an entirely new life, a life with Menieres Disease. 

As you have maybe already seen on a previous blog post, I drove north to Germany this fall and found a Menieres Clinic and Dr. Golenhofen.

 

Things have changed a little, I'm still trying to rebuild a life, but now that the vestibular part if my condition, which apparently does not qualify as Ménière's disease has been helped. I have had zero vertigo attacks since my trip to Germany. 

I'm now looking at rebuilding the life I once had, guiding clients in the mountains!! This does not come without a certain amount of apprehension and fear. I'm weary of rebuilding my past only to lose it again.

I've recently have had some great days in the mountains skiing and ski touring, both with clients and with friends. It's been amazing and way more than I could have wished for just a few weeks ago. I now know that physically I would be able to start guiding more often. The difficulty I'm having is with the highs I'm getting from being in the mountains again, a lot higher and happier than I have been in a long time. Now I'm beginning to be terrified of losing it all over again. 

I should be satisfied with the improvements in lifestyle that I have attained already... I get this!! Think forward... I get this as well. 

It will take time to get this all together... Time will heal... 

I know that if and when the vertigo starts again. I will be able to get the treatment again. 

I would love to be able to charge forward and rebuild the old me. 

Family Love

I love family!
I love the way they are always there to hold your hand when times are tough. They always call to find out how you are doing and asking the right questions about whether life is getting easier or not. The words of encouragement mean so much to a person that has struggled with with an invisible and debilitating condition for X amount of years. It always helps to know that... no matter what... family will always be family.
 

Hand operation.

On my way to get a bone chip removed from my hand after a mountain bike fall on the second of November.  Only took 2.5 months to find a doctor willing to get in there and remove the chip before it's causes more damage. 

Road to recovery

The journey of getting sick, understanding that I am sick, being sick has been long and arduous. 

The journey of getting help, understanding that I need help, getting the wrong help and no help up until I finally got some help has also been a long and arduous experience. 

Recently I was given the opportunity to reverse this journey and turn things around. So I've begun the  return journey, and even though some days are easy and happen quickly, there is this immense sense of lost time, lost experiences, missed opportunities, that clouds my focus at times.